Another Year

So, it's nearly my birthday, and another year gone by in my life.

One of these days I may even get things right, but until then I guess I'll just have to be happy with all my imperfections.  I guess it is fitting that for those born under the sign of the Scorpio the Tarot card that signifies death and rebirth are their card.  The Death card is our card.  The end of one thing, the beginning of another.  I'm not sure about all you other scorps out there, but that tends to be very true for me.  I'm constantly seeming to be in a state of flux.  One thing or another ends, and I must then struggle to seek a new path, a new way, or to rebirth myself.  It's interesting, but it's also exhausting.

I'm so tired of change, I just want for once in my life for something to be constant.  And I don't mean being unemployed either LOL.  I'm sitting here trying to think of what things I have had that have been constant.  My family, and my love for them, that's one, a good one.  Which, by the way, I had a call from my big bruvver the other day, that was nice.  I love him, and don't get to see him often enough.  I think maybe that's the only constant I have had.  I suppose it's kept me fairly sane despite all the ups and downs.  I think at this point the downs are ahead, but I'm working on that.

Hopefully, once I claw my way out of this hole, I'm out for good...........think I may need a long hot bath once I do, it's a bit musty down here.